Day 112 - I don't know how I'm gonna tell you

I have spent the last two weeks preparing myself for moving to 'management' and returning to eating food again! Whilst I have a good view on how and what to manage my drink intake, food is still a concern and area of the unknown to me.

I don't know how I will feel and how I will react to the changes I know I need to make to my eating habits. Actually, it is not that I don't know, it is more that I don't know if I will get satisfaction and be happy with this. I find this quite scary actually. For the first time since I started the program, I have a few doubts on my long term ability to manage my life in this respect.

It is these concerns that makes me certain that I will run the full 'route to management' course with LL as I think I will need support and someone to bounce ideas off and give me suggestions on ways to manage this process of change.

What I do know is that I am ready for a change in my program and ready to embark on a new phase to my life change program. Having started sceptical about 'abstinence' and whether I could lost what I needed, I have proven to myself that I can do that, so I am ready for a new challenge. This is the one.

Anyway, after a two week break (as I was away for last week's weigh in) I was looking forward to seeing where I was this week, from a weight perspective. So......

The good news is I have lost a further 7.7lb and now have lost over 6 stone and my weight is below 12.5 stone and my BMI is 24.87, i.e. in the NORMAL range for the first time in many many years! Hooray!

Moving into 'route to management' after today and learning how to say to food and drink "I can't play with you no more" .

Before/after photos coming next week!

Title: That's the way
Artist: Led Zeppelin
Album: Led Zeppelin III
Year: 1970

I don't know how I'm gonna tell you,
I can't play with you no more,
I don't know how I'm gonna do what mama told me,
My friend, the boy next door.
I can't believe what people saying,
You're gonna let your hair hang down,
I'm satisfied to sit here working all day long,
You're in the darker side of town.

And when I'm out I see you walking,
Why don't your eyes see me?
Could it be you've found another game to play,
What did mama say to me?

That's The Way,
Oh, That's The Way it oughtta be, yeah, yeah, Mama say
That's The Way it oughtta stay, yeah, yeah, ooh, ooh

And yesterday I saw you standing by the river,
And weren't those tears that filled your eyes?
And all the fish that lay in dirty water dying,
Had they got you hypnotized?

And yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers,
But all that lives is born to die.
And so I say to you that nothing really matters,
And all you do is stand and cry.

I don't know what to say about it,
When all your ears are turned away,
But now's the time to look and look again at what you see,
Is that the way it ought to stay?

That's the way...
That's the way it oughtta be, oh don't you know now,
Mama said, mama said... that's the way it's gonna stay, yeah. ahh, ahhh, ahhhhhhhh